Maybe one day I’ll start a year not dieting and vowing to exercise more. Not giving up alcohol and bread and going on a juice fast. But it is not this year. It probably won’t be next year either.
But this year I’m doing things a little different. I’m joining Jennie’s Blogging Biggest Loser. And while I recognize RIGHT NOW there is absolutely no way I’m going to win because they are all going hard core Paleo with things like Whole 90 and I have no idea what the other things are called, I’m doing a hodge podge like giving up alcohol and sugar and wheat and exercising more. I did it last year and lost a good amount of weight. And then the holidays happened and I ate ALL THE THINGS.
I have struggled with my weight literally all my life. I don’t really remember a time where I ever felt at peace with how I looked. (Maybe at my wedding weight which was the thinnest I ever was but I probably thought I was fat then too.) But I want this to be the year I care less about the number on the scale (which is odd since I’m entering a weight loss competition) and more about how I feel. Last year when I was doing my detox diet and I felt amazing. My skin cleared up. I had a ton of energy. I didn’t care how I looked because If I looked how I felt, it didn’t matter.
I also could have given my left arm for a glass of wine.
And here we are again, new year, new diet, no alcohol. I’m also going to do a juice fast, myself Which means going to the store, buying the produce, not eating, and juicing. It may be the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. I’ll let you know.