Finding Hope

This week has truly been lovely.  I thought I would have been struggling to fill the days but our days have filled up quickly with play dates and play grounds and lounging at the the pool.  Today we have a Disney event and then a school event. Where we meet his FIRST GRADE TEACHER.  How is it possible this child is in FIRST GRADE? (Michael is convinced his first grade teacher is going to be at the Disney event.  And he is still struggling with the Mommy is a lawyer and gets to go to all this cool stuff, thing.)

I will say that every single person I have mentioned Michael's teacher to, that is familair with the school, is like, "you got so and so?"  "She is a gift from heaven."  "You will LOVER HER."  "She is the natural progression from the teacher you had last year to the teacher you had this year.  It is the gift the school gives you."  

Michael's last session with our reading tutor was yesterday.  And she honestly was a gift from heaven.  I wanted to hug her legs and scream NO DON'T GO.  But she teaches during the year, and while she would have stayed with Michael, she wasn't convinced he needed it.  The person I wanted to give CASH MONEY TO, was all "let's get him to first grade and see how he does and then check in with me after the parent teacher conference."  And I was like "no don't leave me."  I get a little co-dependent when I find people I love.

4 more days and then Michael starts school and I go back to work and Doug, well, I have no idea.  But a hurricane is barreling towards our house and our power company is already telling us to prepare for "multi-day outages."  Because they are so reliable.  And I'm not even sure I care anymore.  Multi day outages, bring it on. Been there, done that.  And in sub zero weather!  I can do August!

For the first time, in a really long time, I'm hoepful.  And I'm holding on to it for dear life.