2010

I remember standing in my kitchen on New Years Eve last year and feeling nothing but hope.  2009 had been such a hard year for us and I felt like 2010 was a new beginning.  We were in a new house and Michael had just started a new school and I remember feeling that 2010 was going to be a year of happiness and joy and all things shiny and bright.

And in a lot of very good ways it was.  Doug and I are so happy.  I can not think of another word to describe our marriage.  Almost 10 years and I feel like, we got this thing.  That doesn't mean we are complacent either.  We plan regular date nights and I try very hard to close the computer some times (I do!) and sit with him and watch tv that he wants to watch.  Or talk.  Or play a game.  California was the second honeymoon we needed.  I am so in love with my husband and I am pretty sure he feels the same way.

Michael is doing well at school.  Is he perfect?  Absolutely not.  But I'm also confident that no matter what happens, whether he has ADHD or a learning disability or is just a 5 year old boy, in the end he is going to be just fine, and it is that confidence that carries me through most days.  Even on the days that he drives me bat shit crazy.  And we have those days.

2010 was the year I feel like I came into my own in this space and on twitter*.  It was the year I wrote here, there and everywhere.  It was the year when people asked me what I did and it took me a minute to remember, am I blogger or a lawyer today?  It was the year that I was finally able to admit to myself that I don't want to be a lawyer anymore.  I'm hoping 2011 is the year that I make that happen.  And even if it is not, I know that it will, eventually.

I came out, mostly, about the blog this year and it feels good.  Blog friends are in real life friends and vice versa.  I have coffee with readers and spend weekends with mamapop and dcmom writers.  I made going to BlogHer work because I really really wanted to, and it was so worth it.  Twitter is the first place I turn to for advice.  And you are always there.

It was not all happy and shiny.  There have certainly been bumps and bruises and turns.  Close friends are sick and some had marriages fall apart.  I  certainly cried and yelled more than I should of.  I have made mistakes, both online and off.  I hurt people I love.  I didn't work out enough and ate too much.  But I always had fun doing it.

Next year is the year that I only surround myself with people who prop me up when possible.  Next year is the year I'm going to make the impossible possible.  Next year I'm going to Disney World, because of you guys.  

Thank you for an amazing 2010.  Each one of you has touched me, more than you know.  Thanks for being here.

Happy New Year. 

*I'm nominated as a top DC tweep.  Please vote for me.  Keep hitting next until you get to Favorite D.C. area blogger and select the button by my name and hit next.  It took my a while to figure out how to vote for myself.  I may be a top tweeter but I'm not bright.

*Also, I'm syndicated over at Blogher today.  I'm so honored they are featuring one of my posts.  Please show me some love.