So I haven't been feeling so well lately. Tired, achy. Generally crappy. And when it started I was like, oh, right, that again. See, I tend to forget I'm sick. Call it denial or managing, it's generally a nice place to be.
They say stress can bring on a flare, and we have had some of that around these parts lately. And even when all that was going on everyone was like, "and how are you feeling?" And I was like," what are all you people talking about? I'M FINE." And then now, wait a minute, I'm not fine.
Add to that the car accident we we were in last weekend. Someone rear ended us at a stop light. We were sitting still, they hit us, Doug's car is a mess, and their car insurance is being total assholes. So, yeah. Stress.
And my work laptop caught a virus, a trojan it's called. I use my work laptop as my personal laptop and the one they handed me back is less than stellar. Let's just say the IT people caught on to my personal use and it's no more tweet deck and itunes for me and bring on the laptop shopping. So, yeah. Stress.
When Michael got hurt, my motto kicked in, just keep swimming. Because that's what I do. Just keep moving. Don't slow down. Don't stop. Don't think. Because if you stop, if you think, if you even sit down, it is all going to come crashing down around you and you will never be able to get up again.
My friend Amy found herself in a little bit of a pickle last week without a room at a BlogHer and we were trying to make it work for her and Ezra to stay with me. And I really didn't care. But because Amy is so much smarter than me she was like, I really don't want to do this to you. You need your own room. If Ezra is up all night, you need your sleep. Your sick.
And I'm like, wait a minute, I'm sick. I forget, because most of the time I'm not. Most of the time, I'm fine. But right now, right now I'm not fine. So it's time to slow down. To stop swimming, to stop doing. To let myself be sick.
Words cannot express how much I hate this.
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I’m sorry. Feel better, and we’re all here if you need to vent.
And I know something about having crappy weeks. Or months. Or years.
I’m sorry. I can empathize. I hate how it sneaks up on you.
I’m sorry. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better. Go ahead and vent as much as you need.
Car accident! How awful. Not what you needed right now. Vent on…that is what blogging is about. Thanks for sharing what you are going through.
*hugz* Hope you’re feeling better soon.
Car accident on top of everything else! Ugh. Sometimes it just all piles up at once. Actually, I think that’s what usually happens.
Right now I’m having one of those “if I can live through next Wednesday I’ll be fine” kind of weeks. So much piling on, but there is an end in sight.
Take whatever time you can to recoup and hopefully you’ll be back to being able to forget for a little while again soon.
I hope you feel better soon.
UGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!! Please take care of yourself
aww hon. virtual hug from reno. sometimes it’s good to wallow in the sick and go ahead and feel sorry for yourself, really hype it up, you know ice cream, chocolate syrup, whipped cream, caramel, m&ms, a bath, a good book, a massage…i mean really really wallow!
the laptop thing is no good. and yes like you said on twitter YOU SHOULD GET A MAC they rock my socks off.
finally. i’m so jealous you know amy.
Oh, sweetie, when it rains it pours, doesn’t it? Please remember to take care of yourself. Otherwise, I might have to actually work instead of reading your blog!
Sorry you are feeling crappy. I am glad to see that you are writing about it and not apologizing for writing about. (You used to.) I hope you get a restful weekend coming up.
Hey, if you need any pointers or anything in dealing with the insurance company let me know, I was an auto claims adjuster for 3 years and would be happy to help out!
I’m sorry. That just sucks.
I get this.
I have chronic autoimmune issues, and my current diagnosis/flare-up has put me in a lot of pain. It is restricting a lot of my activities and making it hard to work, because the meds make me tired.
And it isn’t like there is a ton of Truly Terrible Stuff. But these things, like you say here, add up.
You are sick. Care for yourself, and you will feel better. It’s OK to sit and just be.
Now let’s see if either of us can follow that advice!
I know what it’s like not to feel well and have stress to make it worse. Of course I’m curious as to your illness, but I guess I will have to poke around a bit more to find out.
I really like your blog.