This Post Is For the All The People Who Wanted Me To Go Negative

by Jodifur on November 14, 2008

YOU WIN.

FUCK YOU IMMUNE SYSTEM.

Thank you, I feel better now.

Guess what? I not only have Lupus. I also have Rheumatoid Arthritis. And probably every other auto-immune disorder known to man. Have we tested for Gout yet? Fibromyalgia? Because if it exists I'm starting to believe they are going to diagnose me with it.

And the exhaustion is back. Just in time for Doug to be out of town and for me to start cooking for Thanksgiving for a million people. And no I just cannot not have it, but thank you for suggesting it because I hadn't thought of that. (Why yes, I'm bitter and angry can you tell?)

Oh, and guess what, my test results make it look like I am in fact developing Systemic Lupus. I am going to be the 10% of people that have both Systemic and non Systemic Lupus. I should play the fucking lottery.

Fine, you were sick of happy, positive, its all sunshine and roses Jodi? You win. I'm done. I give up. No more tests. No more doctors appointments. No more phone calls. NO MORE.
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I apologize for being cagey and dramedy (so not a word) on twitter today. I wasn't even going to talk about it. I canceled going out with the girls because I didn't want to talk about it. But blogging is therapy for me and I then realized I had to talk about it.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03562696078418955398" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:11 am

I’m sorry sweetie! Sending you hugs!

And you’re totally justified and ALLOWED to be MAD!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03562696078418955398" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:11 am

I’m sorry sweetie! Sending you hugs!

And you’re totally justified and ALLOWED to be MAD!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03562696078418955398" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:11 am

I’m sorry sweetie! Sending you hugs!

And you’re totally justified and ALLOWED to be MAD!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03562696078418955398" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:11 am

I’m sorry sweetie! Sending you hugs!

And you’re totally justified and ALLOWED to be MAD!

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 She Likes Purple</ November 14, 2008 at 2:12 am

Lord, you have gone through a lot the last few weeks. You deserve presents and wine and vacations heaped upon you.

I’m so sorry, Jodi. I wish I had more to offer, but I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best to come out of all this.

And did I mention wine? You should have wine.

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 She Likes Purple</ November 14, 2008 at 2:12 am

Lord, you have gone through a lot the last few weeks. You deserve presents and wine and vacations heaped upon you.

I’m so sorry, Jodi. I wish I had more to offer, but I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best to come out of all this.

And did I mention wine? You should have wine.

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 She Likes Purple</ November 14, 2008 at 2:12 am

Lord, you have gone through a lot the last few weeks. You deserve presents and wine and vacations heaped upon you.

I’m so sorry, Jodi. I wish I had more to offer, but I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best to come out of all this.

And did I mention wine? You should have wine.

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 She Likes Purple</ November 14, 2008 at 2:12 am

Lord, you have gone through a lot the last few weeks. You deserve presents and wine and vacations heaped upon you.

I’m so sorry, Jodi. I wish I had more to offer, but I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best to come out of all this.

And did I mention wine? You should have wine.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/05647636655893691552" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

My heart goes out to you.

I second the wine. And really great chocolate. With whipped cream. And berries, if you’re into that sort of thing.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09509054535644094092" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

Oh, I am so sorry.

You do not know how much I wish I lived closer. I’d come over with a pizza and we could have some wine. Even though I can’t have pizza right now (my immune system seems to have decided that wheat? It is the ENEMY) and I don’t really care for wine.

BUT I still totally wish I could be there.

I hope sending good thoughts and all that can suffice.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/05647636655893691552" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

My heart goes out to you.

I second the wine. And really great chocolate. With whipped cream. And berries, if you’re into that sort of thing.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09509054535644094092" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

Oh, I am so sorry.

You do not know how much I wish I lived closer. I’d come over with a pizza and we could have some wine. Even though I can’t have pizza right now (my immune system seems to have decided that wheat? It is the ENEMY) and I don’t really care for wine.

BUT I still totally wish I could be there.

I hope sending good thoughts and all that can suffice.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/05647636655893691552" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

My heart goes out to you.

I second the wine. And really great chocolate. With whipped cream. And berries, if you’re into that sort of thing.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09509054535644094092" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

Oh, I am so sorry.

You do not know how much I wish I lived closer. I’d come over with a pizza and we could have some wine. Even though I can’t have pizza right now (my immune system seems to have decided that wheat? It is the ENEMY) and I don’t really care for wine.

BUT I still totally wish I could be there.

I hope sending good thoughts and all that can suffice.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/05647636655893691552" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

My heart goes out to you.

I second the wine. And really great chocolate. With whipped cream. And berries, if you’re into that sort of thing.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09509054535644094092" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:17 am

Oh, I am so sorry.

You do not know how much I wish I lived closer. I’d come over with a pizza and we could have some wine. Even though I can’t have pizza right now (my immune system seems to have decided that wheat? It is the ENEMY) and I don’t really care for wine.

BUT I still totally wish I could be there.

I hope sending good thoughts and all that can suffice.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09580119434104961289" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:18 am

Oh, honey, you are so allowed to be mad, upset, scared, and any other emotion that pops up.

I remember when my mom was (finally) diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, before many doctors even admitted it was an auto-immune disorder, and she went through a new emotion every 5 minutes.

Keeping you in my thoughts!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09580119434104961289" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:18 am

Oh, honey, you are so allowed to be mad, upset, scared, and any other emotion that pops up.

I remember when my mom was (finally) diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, before many doctors even admitted it was an auto-immune disorder, and she went through a new emotion every 5 minutes.

Keeping you in my thoughts!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09580119434104961289" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:18 am

Oh, honey, you are so allowed to be mad, upset, scared, and any other emotion that pops up.

I remember when my mom was (finally) diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, before many doctors even admitted it was an auto-immune disorder, and she went through a new emotion every 5 minutes.

Keeping you in my thoughts!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/09580119434104961289" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:18 am

Oh, honey, you are so allowed to be mad, upset, scared, and any other emotion that pops up.

I remember when my mom was (finally) diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, before many doctors even admitted it was an auto-immune disorder, and she went through a new emotion every 5 minutes.

Keeping you in my thoughts!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08488628928151163115" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:20 am

I read you often, but don’t comment much, mainly out of shyness. anyway, I wanted to delurk today to say, you totally deserve a break in positivity. and what better place to do it than here?
You are in my thoughts, dear. Here is hoping for sunshine and roses soon.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08488628928151163115" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:20 am

I read you often, but don’t comment much, mainly out of shyness. anyway, I wanted to delurk today to say, you totally deserve a break in positivity. and what better place to do it than here?
You are in my thoughts, dear. Here is hoping for sunshine and roses soon.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08488628928151163115" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:20 am

I read you often, but don’t comment much, mainly out of shyness. anyway, I wanted to delurk today to say, you totally deserve a break in positivity. and what better place to do it than here?
You are in my thoughts, dear. Here is hoping for sunshine and roses soon.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/08488628928151163115" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:20 am

I read you often, but don’t comment much, mainly out of shyness. anyway, I wanted to delurk today to say, you totally deserve a break in positivity. and what better place to do it than here?
You are in my thoughts, dear. Here is hoping for sunshine and roses soon.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03440188563273130436" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 am

Systemic. Systematic is something different. (Why yes, I do hope being a grammar pedant gives you someone to yell at and makes you feel better :P )

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03440188563273130436" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 am

Systemic. Systematic is something different. (Why yes, I do hope being a grammar pedant gives you someone to yell at and makes you feel better :P )

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03440188563273130436" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 am

Systemic. Systematic is something different. (Why yes, I do hope being a grammar pedant gives you someone to yell at and makes you feel better :P )

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/03440188563273130436" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 am

Systemic. Systematic is something different. (Why yes, I do hope being a grammar pedant gives you someone to yell at and makes you feel better :P )

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/11869800317421680310" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:42 am

You are perfectly justified in feeling however you feel. You’re certainly wearing the scars to show you’ve earned the right.

And you can let it out here anytime. We’ll always love you. And those who don’t should just go away.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/11869800317421680310" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:42 am

You are perfectly justified in feeling however you feel. You’re certainly wearing the scars to show you’ve earned the right.

And you can let it out here anytime. We’ll always love you. And those who don’t should just go away.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/11869800317421680310" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:42 am

You are perfectly justified in feeling however you feel. You’re certainly wearing the scars to show you’ve earned the right.

And you can let it out here anytime. We’ll always love you. And those who don’t should just go away.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/11869800317421680310" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:42 am

You are perfectly justified in feeling however you feel. You’re certainly wearing the scars to show you’ve earned the right.

And you can let it out here anytime. We’ll always love you. And those who don’t should just go away.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02436403330073542241" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:13 am

Thanks Jamie-I can also be pissed at spell check who changed that.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02436403330073542241" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:13 am

Thanks Jamie-I can also be pissed at spell check who changed that.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02436403330073542241" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:13 am

Thanks Jamie-I can also be pissed at spell check who changed that.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02436403330073542241" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:13 am

Thanks Jamie-I can also be pissed at spell check who changed that.

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 Karen (miscmum) November 14, 2008 at 3:19 am

I’m very sorry, and am glad you’re using your blog to vent and reach out to get the support you deserve right now. I have been following on twitter; I am sorry not to have left a comment before now.

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 Karen (miscmum) November 14, 2008 at 3:19 am

I’m very sorry, and am glad you’re using your blog to vent and reach out to get the support you deserve right now. I have been following on twitter; I am sorry not to have left a comment before now.

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 Karen (miscmum) November 14, 2008 at 3:19 am

I’m very sorry, and am glad you’re using your blog to vent and reach out to get the support you deserve right now. I have been following on twitter; I am sorry not to have left a comment before now.

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 Karen (miscmum) November 14, 2008 at 3:19 am

I’m very sorry, and am glad you’re using your blog to vent and reach out to get the support you deserve right now. I have been following on twitter; I am sorry not to have left a comment before now.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10325609744026316727" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:20 am

I’m so sorry.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10325609744026316727" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:20 am

I’m so sorry.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10325609744026316727" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:20 am

I’m so sorry.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10325609744026316727" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:20 am

I’m so sorry.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/15696788038401380047" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:23 am

Want me to bring you some wine?

Wait, you probably have much better wine than I do. Want me to bring you some brownies?

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/15696788038401380047" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:23 am

Want me to bring you some wine?

Wait, you probably have much better wine than I do. Want me to bring you some brownies?

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/15696788038401380047" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:23 am

Want me to bring you some wine?

Wait, you probably have much better wine than I do. Want me to bring you some brownies?

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/15696788038401380047" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:23 am

Want me to bring you some wine?

Wait, you probably have much better wine than I do. Want me to bring you some brownies?

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04128926711800459894" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:49 am

Get it all out– your blog, your rules. Anyone sending you any kind of message other than ‘best to you,’ is an idiot.

Rant away, we’re here to listen and wish you better times!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04128926711800459894" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:49 am

Get it all out– your blog, your rules. Anyone sending you any kind of message other than ‘best to you,’ is an idiot.

Rant away, we’re here to listen and wish you better times!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04128926711800459894" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:49 am

Get it all out– your blog, your rules. Anyone sending you any kind of message other than ‘best to you,’ is an idiot.

Rant away, we’re here to listen and wish you better times!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04128926711800459894" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:49 am

Get it all out– your blog, your rules. Anyone sending you any kind of message other than ‘best to you,’ is an idiot.

Rant away, we’re here to listen and wish you better times!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04229890109467300091" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:57 am

God that sucks! I am truly sorry. You actually are being far calmer and kinder than I would be in this situation. I do know that they will be able to help treat your symptoms with medication and perhaps alleviate some of your discomfort.

I do hope you continue to use your blog as a punching bag as often as you need. If for nothing else than to remind you that you have a big WORLDWIDE gaggle of people who are thinking about you and wishing you the best.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04229890109467300091" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:57 am

God that sucks! I am truly sorry. You actually are being far calmer and kinder than I would be in this situation. I do know that they will be able to help treat your symptoms with medication and perhaps alleviate some of your discomfort.

I do hope you continue to use your blog as a punching bag as often as you need. If for nothing else than to remind you that you have a big WORLDWIDE gaggle of people who are thinking about you and wishing you the best.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04229890109467300091" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:57 am

God that sucks! I am truly sorry. You actually are being far calmer and kinder than I would be in this situation. I do know that they will be able to help treat your symptoms with medication and perhaps alleviate some of your discomfort.

I do hope you continue to use your blog as a punching bag as often as you need. If for nothing else than to remind you that you have a big WORLDWIDE gaggle of people who are thinking about you and wishing you the best.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04229890109467300091" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 3:57 am

God that sucks! I am truly sorry. You actually are being far calmer and kinder than I would be in this situation. I do know that they will be able to help treat your symptoms with medication and perhaps alleviate some of your discomfort.

I do hope you continue to use your blog as a punching bag as often as you need. If for nothing else than to remind you that you have a big WORLDWIDE gaggle of people who are thinking about you and wishing you the best.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/12919969826505761593" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:18 am

You know I’m here for you. This is so unfair.

But I know this won’t impact your snark! ;) I love your snark! xo

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/12919969826505761593" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:18 am

You know I’m here for you. This is so unfair.

But I know this won’t impact your snark! ;) I love your snark! xo

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/12919969826505761593" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:18 am

You know I’m here for you. This is so unfair.

But I know this won’t impact your snark! ;) I love your snark! xo

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/12919969826505761593" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:18 am

You know I’m here for you. This is so unfair.

But I know this won’t impact your snark! ;) I love your snark! xo

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16568261480528838783" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:35 am

Yes, you are allowed to feel anger and frustration, and I feel it for you. Living with chronic illness sucks, and if there is anything I can do just let me know.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16568261480528838783" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:35 am

Yes, you are allowed to feel anger and frustration, and I feel it for you. Living with chronic illness sucks, and if there is anything I can do just let me know.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16568261480528838783" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:35 am

Yes, you are allowed to feel anger and frustration, and I feel it for you. Living with chronic illness sucks, and if there is anything I can do just let me know.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16568261480528838783" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:35 am

Yes, you are allowed to feel anger and frustration, and I feel it for you. Living with chronic illness sucks, and if there is anything I can do just let me know.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02842393622023537966" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:45 am

Oh J. I am so sorry. You have every right to be mad, disappointed, frustrated and TIRED. I get where you're coming from about no more appointments, no more phone calls b/c seriously: There is a limit. And reaching your doesn't mean anything except you're human and have had UP TO HERE!!

Chronic illness does suck and it's really & truly okay to say so outloud. And anyone who tells or implies different can go pound sand.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02842393622023537966" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:45 am

Oh J. I am so sorry. You have every right to be mad, disappointed, frustrated and TIRED. I get where you're coming from about no more appointments, no more phone calls b/c seriously: There is a limit. And reaching your doesn't mean anything except you're human and have had UP TO HERE!!

Chronic illness does suck and it's really & truly okay to say so outloud. And anyone who tells or implies different can go pound sand.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02842393622023537966" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:45 am

Oh J. I am so sorry. You have every right to be mad, disappointed, frustrated and TIRED. I get where you're coming from about no more appointments, no more phone calls b/c seriously: There is a limit. And reaching your doesn't mean anything except you're human and have had UP TO HERE!!

Chronic illness does suck and it's really & truly okay to say so outloud. And anyone who tells or implies different can go pound sand.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/02842393622023537966" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:45 am

Oh J. I am so sorry. You have every right to be mad, disappointed, frustrated and TIRED. I get where you're coming from about no more appointments, no more phone calls b/c seriously: There is a limit. And reaching your doesn't mean anything except you're human and have had UP TO HERE!!

Chronic illness does suck and it's really & truly okay to say so outloud. And anyone who tells or implies different can go pound sand.

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 Grandmere November 14, 2008 at 4:49 am

You certainly do deserve to be angry.

About Thanksgiving? I would call everyone and say that while you will provide the main dish, otherwise it is potluck! Especially since your diagnosis is so recent and the meds haven’t had time to buildup in your stem and help.

One thing I have learned from my dear friend who has lupus, she has learned to ask for help, to admit she needs it when she needs it and that her family and friends love her enough to provide it!

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 Grandmere November 14, 2008 at 4:49 am

You certainly do deserve to be angry.

About Thanksgiving? I would call everyone and say that while you will provide the main dish, otherwise it is potluck! Especially since your diagnosis is so recent and the meds haven’t had time to buildup in your stem and help.

One thing I have learned from my dear friend who has lupus, she has learned to ask for help, to admit she needs it when she needs it and that her family and friends love her enough to provide it!

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 Grandmere November 14, 2008 at 4:49 am

You certainly do deserve to be angry.

About Thanksgiving? I would call everyone and say that while you will provide the main dish, otherwise it is potluck! Especially since your diagnosis is so recent and the meds haven’t had time to buildup in your stem and help.

One thing I have learned from my dear friend who has lupus, she has learned to ask for help, to admit she needs it when she needs it and that her family and friends love her enough to provide it!

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 Grandmere November 14, 2008 at 4:49 am

You certainly do deserve to be angry.

About Thanksgiving? I would call everyone and say that while you will provide the main dish, otherwise it is potluck! Especially since your diagnosis is so recent and the meds haven’t had time to buildup in your stem and help.

One thing I have learned from my dear friend who has lupus, she has learned to ask for help, to admit she needs it when she needs it and that her family and friends love her enough to provide it!

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 BananaBlueberry</ November 14, 2008 at 4:57 am

ugh-

I’m so sorry… I’m praying for you.

AND- we gotta talk about the speech stuff- I have good news for you…
(I’m an unofficial expert on speech now)

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 BananaBlueberry</ November 14, 2008 at 4:57 am

ugh-

I’m so sorry… I’m praying for you.

AND- we gotta talk about the speech stuff- I have good news for you…
(I’m an unofficial expert on speech now)

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 BananaBlueberry</ November 14, 2008 at 4:57 am

ugh-

I’m so sorry… I’m praying for you.

AND- we gotta talk about the speech stuff- I have good news for you…
(I’m an unofficial expert on speech now)

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 BananaBlueberry</ November 14, 2008 at 4:57 am

ugh-

I’m so sorry… I’m praying for you.

AND- we gotta talk about the speech stuff- I have good news for you…
(I’m an unofficial expert on speech now)

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04981623960877353418" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:03 am

It’s just not fair – any of it. I am stomping my feet for you!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04981623960877353418" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:03 am

It’s just not fair – any of it. I am stomping my feet for you!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04981623960877353418" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:03 am

It’s just not fair – any of it. I am stomping my feet for you!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04981623960877353418" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:03 am

It’s just not fair – any of it. I am stomping my feet for you!

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 Dorinda Varga Photography November 14, 2008 at 5:21 am

I agree with the others that you have every right to be angry and upset. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. Definitely take it easy this holiday season. Other’s should be cooking for you to help out. (((HUGS)))

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 Dorinda Varga Photography November 14, 2008 at 5:21 am

I agree with the others that you have every right to be angry and upset. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. Definitely take it easy this holiday season. Other’s should be cooking for you to help out. (((HUGS)))

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 Dorinda Varga Photography November 14, 2008 at 5:21 am

I agree with the others that you have every right to be angry and upset. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. Definitely take it easy this holiday season. Other’s should be cooking for you to help out. (((HUGS)))

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 Dorinda Varga Photography November 14, 2008 at 5:21 am

I agree with the others that you have every right to be angry and upset. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. Definitely take it easy this holiday season. Other’s should be cooking for you to help out. (((HUGS)))

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17998695094102234995" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:51 am

*hugs* I’m here, if you ever need any help with anything. This latest diagnosis is a lot to handle, and it does suck. I’m so sorry you’ve having to go through all this. Body, seriously, one disease is enough; cut it out!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17998695094102234995" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:51 am

*hugs* I’m here, if you ever need any help with anything. This latest diagnosis is a lot to handle, and it does suck. I’m so sorry you’ve having to go through all this. Body, seriously, one disease is enough; cut it out!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17998695094102234995" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:51 am

*hugs* I’m here, if you ever need any help with anything. This latest diagnosis is a lot to handle, and it does suck. I’m so sorry you’ve having to go through all this. Body, seriously, one disease is enough; cut it out!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17998695094102234995" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 5:51 am

*hugs* I’m here, if you ever need any help with anything. This latest diagnosis is a lot to handle, and it does suck. I’m so sorry you’ve having to go through all this. Body, seriously, one disease is enough; cut it out!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10853093384364098724" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:12 am

Oh man Jodi. I’m so sorry (and I’m sorry to be just catching this now).

Think, absorb, share, vent…it’s your blog.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10853093384364098724" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:12 am

Oh man Jodi. I’m so sorry (and I’m sorry to be just catching this now).

Think, absorb, share, vent…it’s your blog.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10853093384364098724" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:12 am

Oh man Jodi. I’m so sorry (and I’m sorry to be just catching this now).

Think, absorb, share, vent…it’s your blog.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/10853093384364098724" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:12 am

Oh man Jodi. I’m so sorry (and I’m sorry to be just catching this now).

Think, absorb, share, vent…it’s your blog.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/00850238812352810843" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:19 am

I’m really sorry…it’s your blog and you can use it however you want to!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/00850238812352810843" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:19 am

I’m really sorry…it’s your blog and you can use it however you want to!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/00850238812352810843" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:19 am

I’m really sorry…it’s your blog and you can use it however you want to!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/00850238812352810843" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 6:19 am

I’m really sorry…it’s your blog and you can use it however you want to!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04926113758994944081" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:02 am

Oh I am so, so sorry. This SUCKS. ((((HUGS))))

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04926113758994944081" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:02 am

Oh I am so, so sorry. This SUCKS. ((((HUGS))))

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04926113758994944081" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:02 am

Oh I am so, so sorry. This SUCKS. ((((HUGS))))

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/04926113758994944081" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:02 am

Oh I am so, so sorry. This SUCKS. ((((HUGS))))

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/13252283843903445777" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:23 am

I saw your twitter posts. I don’t know what to say except to say I am thinking of you. Blogging is good therapy. I often like venting in a post…probably better than saying the same thing to a person’s face.

I know I don’t know you in the real world…but if you ever need to vent or talk I am close to you…near Damascus, MD. Rereading that sentence sounds odd, but I do feel as though I am friends with people I “meet” in the blogging world or on twitter even if I have not met them face-to-face.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/13252283843903445777" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:23 am

I saw your twitter posts. I don’t know what to say except to say I am thinking of you. Blogging is good therapy. I often like venting in a post…probably better than saying the same thing to a person’s face.

I know I don’t know you in the real world…but if you ever need to vent or talk I am close to you…near Damascus, MD. Rereading that sentence sounds odd, but I do feel as though I am friends with people I “meet” in the blogging world or on twitter even if I have not met them face-to-face.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/13252283843903445777" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:23 am

I saw your twitter posts. I don’t know what to say except to say I am thinking of you. Blogging is good therapy. I often like venting in a post…probably better than saying the same thing to a person’s face.

I know I don’t know you in the real world…but if you ever need to vent or talk I am close to you…near Damascus, MD. Rereading that sentence sounds odd, but I do feel as though I am friends with people I “meet” in the blogging world or on twitter even if I have not met them face-to-face.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/13252283843903445777" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:23 am

I saw your twitter posts. I don’t know what to say except to say I am thinking of you. Blogging is good therapy. I often like venting in a post…probably better than saying the same thing to a person’s face.

I know I don’t know you in the real world…but if you ever need to vent or talk I am close to you…near Damascus, MD. Rereading that sentence sounds odd, but I do feel as though I am friends with people I “meet” in the blogging world or on twitter even if I have not met them face-to-face.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07931351971982028473" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:58 am

Oh dear. Sad face.

If you don’t feel like going out tomorrow night let me know…But just to entice you, I bought a new shirt. Well I bought the shirt because I miscalculated in clothing choices but um, NEW shirt.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07931351971982028473" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:58 am

Oh dear. Sad face.

If you don’t feel like going out tomorrow night let me know…But just to entice you, I bought a new shirt. Well I bought the shirt because I miscalculated in clothing choices but um, NEW shirt.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07931351971982028473" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:58 am

Oh dear. Sad face.

If you don’t feel like going out tomorrow night let me know…But just to entice you, I bought a new shirt. Well I bought the shirt because I miscalculated in clothing choices but um, NEW shirt.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/07931351971982028473" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 7:58 am

Oh dear. Sad face.

If you don’t feel like going out tomorrow night let me know…But just to entice you, I bought a new shirt. Well I bought the shirt because I miscalculated in clothing choices but um, NEW shirt.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/14084242509519566587" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 pm

Totally NOT FAIR. What the hell? You don’t deserve this, sweetie. I am so sorry – and also so here for you. Please – anything you need. I am especially good at being a drinking partner and a babysitter (not at the same time- of course).

Love you.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/14084242509519566587" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 pm

Totally NOT FAIR. What the hell? You don’t deserve this, sweetie. I am so sorry – and also so here for you. Please – anything you need. I am especially good at being a drinking partner and a babysitter (not at the same time- of course).

Love you.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/14084242509519566587" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 pm

Totally NOT FAIR. What the hell? You don’t deserve this, sweetie. I am so sorry – and also so here for you. Please – anything you need. I am especially good at being a drinking partner and a babysitter (not at the same time- of course).

Love you.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/14084242509519566587" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 2:37 pm

Totally NOT FAIR. What the hell? You don’t deserve this, sweetie. I am so sorry – and also so here for you. Please – anything you need. I am especially good at being a drinking partner and a babysitter (not at the same time- of course).

Love you.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17083331411694803694" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:14 pm

Terrible and so worth ranting about. We are always here to listen to your negative thoughts.

Get it out. It is certainly better than keeping it in.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17083331411694803694" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:14 pm

Terrible and so worth ranting about. We are always here to listen to your negative thoughts.

Get it out. It is certainly better than keeping it in.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17083331411694803694" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:14 pm

Terrible and so worth ranting about. We are always here to listen to your negative thoughts.

Get it out. It is certainly better than keeping it in.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17083331411694803694" rel="nofollow November 14, 2008 at 4:14 pm

Terrible and so worth ranting about. We are always here to listen to your negative thoughts.

Get it out. It is certainly better than keeping it in.

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 Anonymous November 14, 2008 at 4:21 pm

do not let anyone tell you how to feel EVER! you sure you can’t get a pass on T-Giving? you know you have a Lupus Card now right? You can use it like a get out of jail free card. Dana used and still does use her Cancer card when she feels like not doing something – you may want to consider it. I use my Blonde card ALL THE TIME! Gets me out of sooooo much! :) love you- mad, bitter, pissed and all- you can’t stop me from that! smags- i forgot my password

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 Anonymous November 14, 2008 at 4:21 pm

do not let anyone tell you how to feel EVER! you sure you can’t get a pass on T-Giving? you know you have a Lupus Card now right? You can use it like a get out of jail free card. Dana used and still does use her Cancer card when she feels like not doing something – you may want to consider it. I use my Blonde card ALL THE TIME! Gets me out of sooooo much! :) love you- mad, bitter, pissed and all- you can’t stop me from that! smags- i forgot my password

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 Anonymous November 14, 2008 at 4:21 pm

do not let anyone tell you how to feel EVER! you sure you can’t get a pass on T-Giving? you know you have a Lupus Card now right? You can use it like a get out of jail free card. Dana used and still does use her Cancer card when she feels like not doing something – you may want to consider it. I use my Blonde card ALL THE TIME! Gets me out of sooooo much! :) love you- mad, bitter, pissed and all- you can’t stop me from that! smags- i forgot my password

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 Anonymous November 14, 2008 at 4:21 pm

do not let anyone tell you how to feel EVER! you sure you can’t get a pass on T-Giving? you know you have a Lupus Card now right? You can use it like a get out of jail free card. Dana used and still does use her Cancer card when she feels like not doing something – you may want to consider it. I use my Blonde card ALL THE TIME! Gets me out of sooooo much! :) love you- mad, bitter, pissed and all- you can’t stop me from that! smags- i forgot my password

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 DemMo November 14, 2008 at 6:08 pm

Not only is it okay to feel pissed off, it’s okay to feel pissed off one minute, sad the next, and fine the next. Hang in there.

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 DemMo November 14, 2008 at 6:08 pm

Not only is it okay to feel pissed off, it’s okay to feel pissed off one minute, sad the next, and fine the next. Hang in there.

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 DemMo November 14, 2008 at 6:08 pm

Not only is it okay to feel pissed off, it’s okay to feel pissed off one minute, sad the next, and fine the next. Hang in there.

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 DemMo November 14, 2008 at 6:08 pm

Not only is it okay to feel pissed off, it’s okay to feel pissed off one minute, sad the next, and fine the next. Hang in there.

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 FishyGirl November 15, 2008 at 4:57 am

Oh, crap, I’ve been so busy and didn’t see all this shit going on. You have every right to feel how you do. Can we do anything for you?

(and about tgiving, go to giantfood.com, go, look, see – we are buying tgiving in a box, pretty cheap, and all you have to do is heat things up. put them in your own dishes and no one will know the difference – I’ll never tell :-) )

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 FishyGirl November 15, 2008 at 4:57 am

Oh, crap, I’ve been so busy and didn’t see all this shit going on. You have every right to feel how you do. Can we do anything for you?

(and about tgiving, go to giantfood.com, go, look, see – we are buying tgiving in a box, pretty cheap, and all you have to do is heat things up. put them in your own dishes and no one will know the difference – I’ll never tell :-) )

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 FishyGirl November 15, 2008 at 4:57 am

Oh, crap, I’ve been so busy and didn’t see all this shit going on. You have every right to feel how you do. Can we do anything for you?

(and about tgiving, go to giantfood.com, go, look, see – we are buying tgiving in a box, pretty cheap, and all you have to do is heat things up. put them in your own dishes and no one will know the difference – I’ll never tell :-) )

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 FishyGirl November 15, 2008 at 4:57 am

Oh, crap, I’ve been so busy and didn’t see all this shit going on. You have every right to feel how you do. Can we do anything for you?

(and about tgiving, go to giantfood.com, go, look, see – we are buying tgiving in a box, pretty cheap, and all you have to do is heat things up. put them in your own dishes and no one will know the difference – I’ll never tell :-) )

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17643438802935893718" rel="nofollow November 15, 2008 at 5:51 am

How did I miss this one??

Sweetie, you get it out because it does make you feel better. How do you think I survived my own little drama factory over here?

Are you getting second opinions on all of this? I hope so.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17643438802935893718" rel="nofollow November 15, 2008 at 5:51 am

How did I miss this one??

Sweetie, you get it out because it does make you feel better. How do you think I survived my own little drama factory over here?

Are you getting second opinions on all of this? I hope so.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17643438802935893718" rel="nofollow November 15, 2008 at 5:51 am

How did I miss this one??

Sweetie, you get it out because it does make you feel better. How do you think I survived my own little drama factory over here?

Are you getting second opinions on all of this? I hope so.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17643438802935893718" rel="nofollow November 15, 2008 at 5:51 am

How did I miss this one??

Sweetie, you get it out because it does make you feel better. How do you think I survived my own little drama factory over here?

Are you getting second opinions on all of this? I hope so.

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 Karen November 17, 2008 at 12:28 am

It’s great that you’re letting the anger and shock out. Going negative gets that crap out of you and into the atmosphere where it can start to wisp away like black smoke. Sounds like you’ve taken a good first step into the rest of your life. Sending you warm wishes and a virtual glass of wine!

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 Karen November 17, 2008 at 12:28 am

It’s great that you’re letting the anger and shock out. Going negative gets that crap out of you and into the atmosphere where it can start to wisp away like black smoke. Sounds like you’ve taken a good first step into the rest of your life. Sending you warm wishes and a virtual glass of wine!

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 Karen November 17, 2008 at 12:28 am

It’s great that you’re letting the anger and shock out. Going negative gets that crap out of you and into the atmosphere where it can start to wisp away like black smoke. Sounds like you’ve taken a good first step into the rest of your life. Sending you warm wishes and a virtual glass of wine!

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 Karen November 17, 2008 at 12:28 am

It’s great that you’re letting the anger and shock out. Going negative gets that crap out of you and into the atmosphere where it can start to wisp away like black smoke. Sounds like you’ve taken a good first step into the rest of your life. Sending you warm wishes and a virtual glass of wine!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/18103618447184051230" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:04 am

DAMN IT!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/18103618447184051230" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:04 am

DAMN IT!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/18103618447184051230" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:04 am

DAMN IT!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/18103618447184051230" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:04 am

DAMN IT!

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16326983167964936939" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:52 am

rant all you want.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16326983167964936939" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:52 am

rant all you want.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16326983167964936939" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:52 am

rant all you want.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/16326983167964936939" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 5:52 am

rant all you want.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17779272406912776589" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 10:19 pm

I’m so sorry. Jeez. You have gone through so much! I wish I lived closer to you, so I could offer some help with Thanksgiving dinner, or drinks, or screaming about the SUCKINESS OF IT ALL.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17779272406912776589" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 10:19 pm

I’m so sorry. Jeez. You have gone through so much! I wish I lived closer to you, so I could offer some help with Thanksgiving dinner, or drinks, or screaming about the SUCKINESS OF IT ALL.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17779272406912776589" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 10:19 pm

I’m so sorry. Jeez. You have gone through so much! I wish I lived closer to you, so I could offer some help with Thanksgiving dinner, or drinks, or screaming about the SUCKINESS OF IT ALL.

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 <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/17779272406912776589" rel="nofollow November 17, 2008 at 10:19 pm

I’m so sorry. Jeez. You have gone through so much! I wish I lived closer to you, so I could offer some help with Thanksgiving dinner, or drinks, or screaming about the SUCKINESS OF IT ALL.

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